Useless Ramblings

Wow. One month and 15 days and I will be starting my junior year of the nursing program. I can't believe I have made it this far. It's crazy to think that in two years, I will be graduating with my BSN, and have a 2 year old, with hopefully another on the way. I can't imagine, life any different, but at the same time I can't believe how fast my life is going. I just turned 20. I have a wonderful little family. My friends are changing as I change, some for the better, some for the worse. Although, I'm sure all changes are for the better, it still hurts to lose friends that once were your life. It's a hard to pill swallow, when your lifestyle no longer matches your friends and they feel like that is a perfect reason to split ways. I understand that I have a family, but my so called friends said they wanted a family too, yet since they haven't started one yet, we shouldn't be friends. Yes, my feelings got a little hurt, but I'm learning how to be strong and be a better person because of it. All will be okay in the end, and if they couldn't stick by me during this time. I'm sure I don't want them beside me in the good times. I try not to be bitter and angry, but somedays I just can't help it, especially when I need a friend. Oh well, life is changing, and I'm gonna take it as it comes. As I once read in a book, I don't want to stand in the middle of a river trying to see around the bend while life flows on around me, I want to be here in the present enjoying every moment!