Ramblings

Tiffany is here! I was told to write this, so I did. She is my aunt and she is awesome!

Anyway useless ramblings. So many things have happened in the past couple of weeks.

My dad came home on leave from Afghanistan (he went back today). He was able to see me graduate from high school :). YAY! I finally did it. He was also able to meet my fiance, he already had but this time he got a chance to sit down and talk to him.

As I already mentioned I graduated from high school. Not so suprisingly I'm not sad. I hated highschool, or at least all the drama that it came with. I'm glad to be out of high school, away from the drama. I'm ready to begin college.

Speaking of college, I went earlier this month to make my class schedule. I'm officially a college student, registered and everything. I'm waiting on my room assignment now, then I'll be all set and ready. I'm currently typing this from my new laptop which I bought last week :), so I'm all set, well except for the stuff for the dorm room.

I think this is about it. I have alot of catching up to do later. But I think this is pretty much as up to date as can be as of today.

Oh yeah, I get engagement pictures done saturday in Memphis, TN! We are getting them done at the zoo, botannical gardens, and other places that we haven't really decided on yet. Needless to say I'm excited and can't to get them done.

Well thats really it this time. Peace for now.

Apparently im a horrible blogger....

At least I was told I was a horrible blogger..by who yep my mother. Oh well...sometimes she doesn't blog for a while so I guess I get that from her. Just thought I would let people in blog-world know that I haven't fallen off the face of the earth. So somethings that have happened since I last blogged: Prom. Yep, thats it so nothing really exciting. So stay tuned in and I will update on Prom (i may even include pictures).

It's a short one

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Butterfly

I love butterflies always have always will. They represent so many beautiful things: life, beauty, change, angels; things people take for granted everyday, but not me once I see a butterfly I remember just what they are little reminders of the little things.

Life. This point is fairly obvious, butterflies are transformed from caterpillars. It represents how we start out small and insignificant but grow to be something more. How there are stages of life that we must go through just like a caterpillar must go through stages to become a butterfly. We too must go through stages to become the person we are meant to become.

Beauty. Butterflies are beautiful, and represnt it physically but also figuratively. Little girls are seens as caterpillars but become butterflies as they get older. They go from something not so pretty to a beautiful person.

Change. Just like the caterpillar must undergo change so must people. Caterpillars marking the beggining of our life before we change, and butterflies representing who we have become. The changes we go through are important just like a caterpillars. The butterfly is the world-wide symbol for change for a reason.

Angels. I saved this for last because to me it is the most important. To me butterflies are angels sent here in disguise to help us through the tough spots, if we care enough to see it that way. Through everything I have been through in my life, whenever I look back I can always remember a buttefly being close by.

Maybe, this is a coincidence or maybe not, take it as you like. I can only tell you what I think. However, if we choose to see butterflies as angels the world may seem like a less scary place. So next time you see a butterfly, stop take time to notice the beauty, take time to be thankful for your life, take time to wonder about change, and take time to think that it may be just a little gift from heaven sent down to show you that your not alone. Who knows maybe it will make a difference in your life maybe it won't. It is all about how you choose to take it.

I have nothing catchy to put here..oh well

So I haven't blogged recently, mainly because nothing interesting or blog-worthy has happend since I got engaged. So here is some useless knowledge about me that you probably won't remember in 10 min. :) Enjoy.

1. What is your name spelled backwards? Eyrollam (go ahead and try to pronounce it...ya know want to)

2. What did you do last night? went to church, then I raced the storm home only to sit infront of the T.V. all night waiting for the Tornado (which never happened, just a really bad thunderstorm at two in the morning...ya know the big crack boom that sounds right out side your window that always wakes you up)

3. What was the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? Pictures

4. Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery? NO...and I don't forsee a sudden urge to either

5. When is the last time you swam in a pool? Last year, I had a membership to the community pool (which I used a whole 2 weeks)

6. What are you wearing right now? BKE Jeans, white sweater dress, brown suede boots

7. How many cars have you owned? 1 but I don't own it (well its in my name but I ain't payin)

8. What is the type of music you detest most? Classical

9. Are you registered to vote? Nope. I'm not old enough

10. Do you have cable? Yep

11. What kind of computer do you use? Asus laptop

12. Have you ever made a prank phone call? Of course, name one person who hasn't.

13. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? I want to, but I won't because I'm a big baby who is scared of heights.

14. What is the farthest you've ever traveled? Leon, Nicaragua (a.k.a the most awesome place I have ever been)

15. What is your favorite comic strip? Garfield...I love that fat cat

16. Do you know all the words to the National Anthem? Just the first stanza, and I know this sounds bad but sometimes I get the lines messed up. OOPS

17. What is your favorite pizza topping? Chicken :)

18. Chips or Popcorn? Chips, I HATE popcorn.

19. Who is your cell phone provider? AT&T

20. Do you shower in the morning or night? It depends on my mood.

21. Have you ever smoked peanut shells? Ummm...no that just sounds weird.

22. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? Too many to count. The most recent Miss. Arkansas Teen USA 2010. :)

23. Orange Juice or Apple Juice? Grape (yes, I know this was not an option but I don't like apple juice and ever since mom made me drink a gallon of orange juice to keep from getting sick a couple of days before the pageant, I try to stay away from it.

24. Who were the last people you ate lunch with? Jonna, and Julia. Adam, Molly and Andrea were out side and Kathryn was not there.. they are my lunch buddies

25. Favorite Chocolate Bar? Cookies and Cream Hershey's (It's the best)

26. Who is your oldest friend and how long have you known each other? Hailey well she's the one I talk to regulary, we have known each other since 3rd grade. Although Tyler would be my oldest since 2nd grade, but he lives in Florida now.

27. When was the last time you ate a homegrown tomato? I don't like tomatoes.

28. Have you ever won a trophy? Yes. Tons of softball, a few basketball, a few volleyball, some for pageants, along with banners and medals in pageants.

29. Favorite arcade game? PacMan

30. Ever ordered from an infomercial? Nooo

31. Sprite or 7UP? Water..I try not to drink soda, but if I had to pick I would choose Coke, or Pepsi (yeah, I know that is old school)

32. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work/school? Yep, I was a catholic school girl. HAHA

33. The last thing you bought at Walgreens? My synthroid medicine (It's the stuff that keeps me alive :)

34. Ever thrown up in public? Nope

35. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love? True love, because money cannot make you happy it can only satisfy you for the moment.

36. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes, I do :)

37. Spongebob or Jimmy Neutron? Tough choice but definitely Spongebob.

38. Did you have long hair as a kid? On and off. I would grow it out, then cut it and get layers, then grow out the layers they cycle would repeat reapeat...infact it still is.

39. What message is on your Voicemail machine? "Hey this is Mal. You know what to do" Seriously people if you don't know how to leave a voicemail, no matter what my message says you cannot be helped.

40. Where would you like to go right now? Somewhere with a beach. Maybe Florida, or Nicaragua

41. What's the name of your pet? I have a cat at my Grandma's named Oreo

42. What kind of backpack do you have and what's in it? Pink, with white spots, it has alot of Calculus papers.

43. What kind of tennis shoes do you have? Asics from volleyball two years ago when I could actually play.

44. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My Nana, telling me the sirens had just went off in Pocahontas and to get home quickly.

45. Mickey Mouse or Bugs Bunny? Bugs Bunny

And one become two...

Today, one became two. I am engaged :) Soo the backstory (before you read it, I'm not a pushy person, this was just cruel). Me and Matt started dating in November 2009, and pretty much knew after the second date that we were gonna get married. In Febuary 2010 he told me that he was going to ask me in December, but then it got pushed to May. Well, naturally me being a girl I wanted to go ahead and start making plans! Then last night we were in my room talking, making wedding plans (hehe, it wasn't even official...I'm such a girl) and I was like this would be so much easier if I had a ring and I could openly plan. He being his stubborn self was like patience is a virtue, me and my smartness was like not a virtue I have. Okay, so now your caught up to today. He comes over to my house and brings in a cookie cake that says patience is a virtue, I immediately shut the cake box and was like I'm not eating that. Then the little light bulb in my head (ya know the one that sometimes I think doesn't work) went off and I was like omg, so I opened the box again and was looking for the ring. He got down on one knee and was like well you don't have to wait any longer will you marry me. Of course I was like YES!! Welcome to the present. Now you are all caught up. And of course there are pictures:


The cake


The ring



Matt and I

So if you read my mom's blog From the Cocoon (go check it out) you know she takes alot of pictures so there will be plenty more. So stay posted for more good juicy news.

To Write Love On Her Arms

This may sound crazy to you, or like some silly teenage girl who is in love, but this title is so much more than that. This title is hope, it is a hope for those people who think they have reached the end. Now I know your wondering what am I talking about. I'm talking about suicide (betcha didn't see that one coming did ya) specifically suicide prevention.

So the back story To Write Love On Her Arms is a national organization (go check it out at www.twloha.com ) that is dedicated to suicide prevention. Twice a year on specific dates people all across the world right love on their forearm, anyway they want to write it as long as it is there, simply by doing this they are showing people that they are loved, and that someone does care whether they are alive or not. This one simple action can save millions of lives.

Why is this so important? It is simple every year almost one million people die from suicide that is one person every 40 seconds. That is alot of people feeling alone in a very populated world. Why care about these people you don't even know? Simple. You may know someone who is considering suicide, it might be someone in your home, school, it could be your very best friend, then again it could be that person you never even give a second glance to. The real question is do your actions make that person want to live or do your actions just confirm the belief that they won't be missed.

This issue is very dear to my heart for many reason. I'm a compassionate person, and I can't stand to see others in pain, it literally makes me hurt inside to see someone else suffering, even a complete stranger. The main reason I'm so compassionate about suicide prevention is because it did happen to me. My cousin, Brian a.k.a Hollywood, committed suicide a couple of days after christmas just a few years ago. Nobody saw this coming, sure he was going through a tough time. Being in a car accident and becoming paralyzed from the shoulders down is a tough time I would say, even if you come from a big, loving family like mine even if it is dysfunctional at times. Was the pain too much for him? I don't know, nobody knows, nobody will ever know. My family never found a goodbye note. The last thing we got was when my aunt walked into his room in time for him to say I'm sorry mom, and pull the trigger. That is it. My life turned upside down in just a couple of seconds. We kept him on a vent long enough to harvest his organs and save six other lives, but at what a cost those six lives were saved. The hardest thing I have ever seen, and trust me I have seen alot as you will find out through other post is seeing my cousin in a coffin, with a bullet wound colored in on his temple. Nothing makes it sink in more than seeing the wound with your own eyes. Did it have to come to that no. Did I do anything to make it worse? Could I have helped? All questions I have to live with. But by simply writing LOVE on my arms I am showing complete strangers the love and compassion I couldn't even show my own cousin. So help us fight suicide, do it for the ones in your life that may be suffering with this.

Okay, on a lighter note. I know that this was an intense first blog. HAHA that is an understatement, but not all of my post will be this way. That would be just way too depressing, and I don't like depressing. Stay posted (haha this is a post) for more interesting stories (to say the least) from my life and how I am living life with no regrets.